What to say?

Let me start off this by saying, I really don't expect many (if any) people to read this. I've done the whole blog thing before, and really I think the greatest part about blogs is that it allows you to express yourself and be completely open. I often have a hard time doing this face-to-face with people as I never want to feel vulnerable. So being able to do that here should relieve some of the stress in my life.

The title of this blog is In The Same Boat simply because I think if anyone does read it, it will be people who have had similar experiences and emotions about things, but are hesitant to share them publicly. So anyone that does end up reading this, I encourage you to read this and share experiences, offer advice, and join in on the experience.

This has been for me a tough summer, well to be fair its been a tough year so far. It started as decently as a year can. I was talking to a girl. She lived in England and soon convinced me to become her boyfriend, after many phone calls, and a promise she would be in America soon. My friends weren't big fans of the idea, and I guess they had good reason to be. I felt a connection with her, but after months and months of her lying, I broke it off and returned to the single life. The problem with the whole relationship was that she led me to believe that she was in America and actually in St. Louis, and I guess the romantic part of me wouldn't let the logical part of me believe she could be lying. So during this ordeal I ended up lying to friends and family because I didn't want the humiliation of telling them she wasn't here. This is probably the stupidest thing I have done in my life. I think the worst part was no one really understands how much it hurts to be lied to and led on for that long. I thought that I would be more guarded following my previous two girlfriends cheating on me, but this was even worse, I gave up so much for this girl only to be slammed down with nothing to show for my efforts. I feel like I'm starting to finally feel like I'm ready to get back into the game and hope doing that will help to turn around this year

I don't want to ramble on and on, making this unreadable for anyone who would want to read this, so I'll stop here for now.

But I'm sure other people have similar stories, and sometimes it really helps to air it out, instead of just bottling it up. So feel free to do that or comment or just read and enjoy.

There's no such thing as fate, only yourself to blame