During the first part of the year, I was going to school full-time, working an internship part-time, working a job part-time, and trying to find time for a little fun for myself. I had decided that despite enjoying the money it brought in, I would need to quit my job at Lowe's to help ease some of the stress I was feeling from my final semester of school and working an internship close to 20 hours a week. In March I decided to leave my job at Lowe's, which at the time I was excited about and ok with for a multitude of reasons.
1) I would have more time for my friends.
2) I had enough money saved from the past to hold me over until I graduated.
3) After graduation (2 months) I would be able to start my career.
I was happy to have more time to spend with my friends and still be able to do things with them that cost money. However, as months went on and on, I had become more and more nervous about how low my funds had been. The few months that I had been expecting to be unemployed had turned into 6 months.
At first I was intent on getting a job in my field, Sports Business, and I was even optimistic about a job in Kansas City, but in July I decided that I should take whatever I can get. I probably applied at 30-50 different openings without a single callback.
Finally last week I was offered a 2 month temp position with a company, with a chance for me to stay on past that. I wasn't my ideal position, but its somewhere to start. So maybe there is hope of turning this year around. But I can't just let things take care of themselves, I need to keep working and not let chances pass me by.
Monday, August 22, 2011
What to say?
Let me start off this by saying, I really don't expect many (if any) people to read this. I've done the whole blog thing before, and really I think the greatest part about blogs is that it allows you to express yourself and be completely open. I often have a hard time doing this face-to-face with people as I never want to feel vulnerable. So being able to do that here should relieve some of the stress in my life.
The title of this blog is In The Same Boat simply because I think if anyone does read it, it will be people who have had similar experiences and emotions about things, but are hesitant to share them publicly. So anyone that does end up reading this, I encourage you to read this and share experiences, offer advice, and join in on the experience.
This has been for me a tough summer, well to be fair its been a tough year so far. It started as decently as a year can. I was talking to a girl. She lived in England and soon convinced me to become her boyfriend, after many phone calls, and a promise she would be in America soon. My friends weren't big fans of the idea, and I guess they had good reason to be. I felt a connection with her, but after months and months of her lying, I broke it off and returned to the single life. The problem with the whole relationship was that she led me to believe that she was in America and actually in St. Louis, and I guess the romantic part of me wouldn't let the logical part of me believe she could be lying. So during this ordeal I ended up lying to friends and family because I didn't want the humiliation of telling them she wasn't here. This is probably the stupidest thing I have done in my life. I think the worst part was no one really understands how much it hurts to be lied to and led on for that long. I thought that I would be more guarded following my previous two girlfriends cheating on me, but this was even worse, I gave up so much for this girl only to be slammed down with nothing to show for my efforts. I feel like I'm starting to finally feel like I'm ready to get back into the game and hope doing that will help to turn around this year
I don't want to ramble on and on, making this unreadable for anyone who would want to read this, so I'll stop here for now.
But I'm sure other people have similar stories, and sometimes it really helps to air it out, instead of just bottling it up. So feel free to do that or comment or just read and enjoy.
There's no such thing as fate, only yourself to blame
The title of this blog is In The Same Boat simply because I think if anyone does read it, it will be people who have had similar experiences and emotions about things, but are hesitant to share them publicly. So anyone that does end up reading this, I encourage you to read this and share experiences, offer advice, and join in on the experience.
This has been for me a tough summer, well to be fair its been a tough year so far. It started as decently as a year can. I was talking to a girl. She lived in England and soon convinced me to become her boyfriend, after many phone calls, and a promise she would be in America soon. My friends weren't big fans of the idea, and I guess they had good reason to be. I felt a connection with her, but after months and months of her lying, I broke it off and returned to the single life. The problem with the whole relationship was that she led me to believe that she was in America and actually in St. Louis, and I guess the romantic part of me wouldn't let the logical part of me believe she could be lying. So during this ordeal I ended up lying to friends and family because I didn't want the humiliation of telling them she wasn't here. This is probably the stupidest thing I have done in my life. I think the worst part was no one really understands how much it hurts to be lied to and led on for that long. I thought that I would be more guarded following my previous two girlfriends cheating on me, but this was even worse, I gave up so much for this girl only to be slammed down with nothing to show for my efforts. I feel like I'm starting to finally feel like I'm ready to get back into the game and hope doing that will help to turn around this year
I don't want to ramble on and on, making this unreadable for anyone who would want to read this, so I'll stop here for now.
But I'm sure other people have similar stories, and sometimes it really helps to air it out, instead of just bottling it up. So feel free to do that or comment or just read and enjoy.
There's no such thing as fate, only yourself to blame
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